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I'm sorry it's so long.

Sorry.

SORRY!

Time's Up

You gave me 2 days to think about it. But those 2 days have turned into 4 months. And I've done nothing but think about it. Believe me, I've thought long and hard. And I've come to a conclusion. For sure, I have my answer now. I know what I want. And what I don't want. I've got it. Sooo, you can come out now. I got it. I'm done. Hello? It's over. Feel free to say something. Or show up. Anytime. Anytime at all. Alright. Jokes over. Time to come back.

Please?

Colorsplash

Inspiration

I Hate Change

I was never good with change. And college isn't helping.

Epiphany

I think I'm over this forever alone phase. Yay! I like getting over it. No matter how many times I go in, getting over it is the best part every time. I've told myself "Karla didn't meet Eric until she was 20" but it didn't really help. Until now. I get it! I just haven't met the man I'm meant to be with yet! That's it! Obviously. Let's look at my options. As close as I got with Jonathan, we need to just get him out of the picture. And then what am I left with? Nothing! Seriously, these guys have been my life for forever. But college has changed us. College has changed them! And not for the better. I don't want them. I need to stop acting like they're my only options because they're not! I'm not stuck with them! Not romantically anyway. I don't have to stay to babysit them anymore and sympathize and be their rebound and make sure it's all okay. Obviously I want them to be happy. But it's not high school! And I don't have to take all the pain anymore. I can actually put all the pain in the past. That being said, that just leaves a brighter future! I just haven't met this guy yet! Wow. I'm in a great mood :)

Thank you Jason Guerrero!!

PS: You better treat her right. You better love her to no end and make sure she knows she's loved. Because I did not let you use me and then dump me for her just so you could cheat on her. Hell no. I don't care that I've never formally met her and I've known you 4 years, college does NOT mean you can be an ass.

10 cents for the Bullet

Nosey

0: Height - 4'9 1/2
1: Virgin? - Duh
2: Shoe Size - 6 or 6 1/2
3: Do you Smoke? - Never
4: Do you Drink? - Never
5: Do you take drugs? - No sir
6: Age you get mistaken for - Anything between 12 and 18
7: Have Tattoos? - No
8: Want any tattoos? - Gross
9: Got any Piercings? - 2 on each ear
10: Want any Piercings? - No more, anything but the ear is unattractive
11: Best friend? - I wanna say Jonathan
12: Relationship status - Single
13: Biggest turn on - Singer!
14: Biggest turn off - Drugs
15: Favorite Movie - Howl's Moving Castle
16: I’ll love you if - You sing/play me "Your Guardian Angel" or give me a blue rose
17: Someone you miss - JuanJosé Medina
18: Most traumatic experience - Dunno
19: A fact about your personality - Obsessive
20: What I hate most about myself - A lot
21: What I love most about myself - Open-minded
22: What I want to be when I get older - Actor
23: My relationship with my sibling(s) - Very good
24: My relationship with my parent(s) - LOL no
25: My idea of a perfect date - Disney World! (you said perfect)
26: My biggest pet peeves - Bad grammar
27: A description of the girl/boy I like - Impossible
28: A description of the person I dislike the most - I don't think that's a thing -_^
29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend - I'm a wimp
30: What I hate the most about work/school - Working?
31: What y last text message says - "I can wrap it here and we can give it to her tomorrow"
32: What words upset me the most - useless question
33: What words make me feel the best about myself - another useless question
34: What I find attractive in women - i dunno, i just know when a girl is pretty
35: What I find attractive in men - dark hair, light eyes, nice smile, charming personality, musical/theatrical/artistic ability, humor, and above all a strong love of God
36: Where I would like to live - here is good
37: One of my insecurities - my face
38: My childhood career choice - singer
39: My favorite ice cream flavor - chocolate chip cookie dough
40: Who wish I could be - Ariana Grande, for funsies
41: Where I want to be right now - here is fine
42: The last thing I ate - Panes!
43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately - Jared Leto
44: A random fact about anything - This was unrevealing and unamusing.

To Do Lists

The Things We Remember

It's hard to ever forget certain conversations. Especially the ones that last until 6AM.

Who am I kidding, I'm in love with you.

Don't Read! Religion. Ew.

That was so moving. I seriously felt the need to sob in that church. How is it that God always knows exactly what to say? I don't even know if I can put my thoughts and feelings into words, but I feel that I have to. I have been so awful this year. Seriously, I have distanced myself from God so immensely, it pains me. I am fully aware of how horrible I've been, and I've been stalling on asking for forgiveness. I've been scared. I've been doubtful. I've been ignorant. I've been neglectful. I've been absolutely awful! But He loves me. Oh man, does He love me. And He has done the ultimate to prove it. I don't think I've ever really grasped it until now, but OH MY GOODNESS. He truly does love me! He has given so much, He has given EVERYTHING for me. No matter how undeserving I am, and how ungrateful I can be. He loves me. I need to stop. I need to stop and rethink this year. My life. I can't keep doing this. I need to find Him again. Find Him and, for once in my life, show Him just a portion of the love that He so deserves. Show Him that bit of faith that I need for Heaven. Because He is so good. And I need to strive to be more like him. This holiday is called Christmas for a reason. Remember, this is a celebration. He is here. He has come. Our Savior, loving and forgiving, has come. I can't even fathom it. There's so much I want to say. And so much I want my peers and loved ones to know. I hope someone finds this. I truly do. I want them to hold me to this. To constantly bring me back to this post and remind me of it. Remind me that I promise to be better. That I said "I want to walk in the right path, with Christ as my guide and the scriptures as my map". Merry Christmas

Statuses

"Little does my friend know that I've spent 4 months making her the best present ever."
You dunno how badly I want that to be about me.

Lovely Family You Got There

WOW youz a b*tch!

Thanks for saying hi by the way. You know, when I was standing right next to you.

Your little sister is quite the charmer. Angry little thing, isn't she?

Oh and the middle child? Yeah she's just like you. Just. Like. You.

-_____________-

Dunno what your beef is, but you may go.

Dear Target & FYE

I appreciate that your entire store is filled with things I want. HOWEVER, I don't appreciate that you don't have any of the gifts I want to buy for other people, especially since I'm never going ot get any of the things I want for myself anyway! Fix that. Kthnxbye.

Love,

Sammy

PS: FYE, I'm all about that cashier. Cute/helpful/enthusiastic? That's the kind of employee people like to see. Me included :)

facepalm

Oh Venezuela

Oh well. Philippines > USA, just saying.

Top 16

1.       Venezuela

2.       Turkey

3.       France

4.       Peru

5.       Russia

6.       Mexico

7.       Poland

8.       Hungary

9.       South Africa

10.   Philippines

11.   Croatia

12.   Brazil

13.   Kosovo

14.   Australia

15.   India

16.   USA

(some obvious. I think I'm cheering for Venezuela)

Pageants

I hate pageants.

I abhor pageants.

I've never enjoyed a pageant ever!

But here I am, watching Miss Universe, actually looking at these girls without disdain.

Huh. Alright. Just this once. 

damnitdamnitdamnitdamnit

The effing worst part is that I KNOW this wasn't him, obviously. I don't even think he knows what PostSecret even is. But DAMNIT. I feel so f*cking lonely and so ready to quit but I just CAN'T. I can't quit you.

"Most Impatient/Needy Person Ever" Award goes to...

Mumford & Sons

Blame Me!

Torturing ourselves, we must be into the abuse. If you're the rope that ties us together, then please make me a noose. Ask me to leave, then beg me just to stay. Used to run to my arms, but now I walk away. Come and go as you please. I'm like a part-time lover with well-worn knees.

Conflict

Want. To. Sleep. But. Must. Stay. On. While. Internet. Is. Working.

Also, I really really really want to talk to you. But let's be real, you're not going to respond. Grr.

The Pretty Sky, Not Bad, Not Bad At All

Movement

There they are. There they go. They're moving on. They're going somewhere with their lives. They're doing something new. And here I stay. Waiting. Waiting for you. Watching them all go. Because I'm here, waiting for you.

And I can't even tell if you appreciate it

Soft Skeletons

Trapped Inside A Pretty Little Lie

Worst Birthday Ever

To top it all off? You didn't even say Happy Birthday

December 4th

R.I.P Rosa Miriam Bosquez, and happy birthday. To the most amazing woman in my life.

It's been years but I still miss you so much. I'd give up anything just to celebrate with you again.


Please excuse me world, I'll do my best not to cry like a complete disaster all day. I know I have other things to do.

Dance With A Devil On Your Back