Really Bryan

It's like when you spend forever and a day writing an email to a professor because you don't want to sound disrespectful and you want to come off as eloquent and well thought out and make sure it's all perfect, and in the end all they respond is "k"

As A Friend

Why the hell don't you miss me?

Anti-Climactic

Seriously. I waited all day. DYING to know what was up. For this? Bro, I know you're venting, but you're retelling my life with different names. I know how this ends. You can stop now.

Vacant, Vapid, Stupid, Perfect

"Keep it at the 10%" my ass.

Thank you, 30 Seconds to Mars, for writing the words I couldn't.

 I’ve been dreaming of things yet to come 

Living, learning, watching, burning 

Eyes on the sun
I’m leaving, gone yesterday  

Brutal, laughing, fighting, fucking  

The price I had to pay
Bright lights, big city  

She dreams of love  

Brights lights, big city  

He lives to run
Demon, where did my angel go  

Vacant, vapid, stupid, perfect  

You are the one 

A new day, a new age, a new face, a new lay,  

A new love, a new drug, a new me, a new you
Bright lights, big city  

She dreams of love  

Brights lights, big city  

He lives to run
I forgive 

Had enough  

Time to live  

Time to love

"Wise" Old Women

The fact that I'm cramping and these old women are trying to be all sweet and share their remedies. Like, ladies, I love you. Thanks. But I've been around. I already know how to get rid of it. I JUST NEED TO GO HOME TO DO IT. yeesh.

YOU LITTLE SH*T

Why the F*CK AM I SO ANGRY? HOLY DAMN CRAP THE HYPOCRISY INVOLVED IN THIS. I WANT TO KILL IT. UGH. I f*ckin' hate myself. Sammy, shut the f*ck up.

Reyes

The vast majority of me laughs because of how ABSOLUTELY IRRELEVANT Angner Reyes is to my life. Especially considering that it took me two years to realize that the only reason I was ever attracted to him was because he reminded me of Jonathan. Now, we went through all that grief for nothing, he's smokes like an idiot, and I can't even remember the last real conversation we had.

But I have to say, "Thank you, Angner Reyes. Because, despite my having known about Jared Leto through My So-Called Life, it was you that truly introduced me to 30 Seconds to Mars."

Makes Sense to No One But Me

Thank you for never being attracted to me ever. Legit. THANK. YOU. I need guy friends. I'm dependent on them. It's all I've known for so long. But I don't really have that here. So having you around to be fully open and honest with is basically saving my sanity. Thanks. The issue is though, I'm too used to that being something more. Sort of. More so, I'm used to my friends, at random points, deciding they like me. And then me, knowing full well that they don't, going out with them anyway. And then starting to gain hope. And then being dumped. Because I was a rebound, or a hookup, or just the desperate choice. And they stay my best friends. And I know they'd never purposely do anything to hurt me. And I know that they're good guys who really don't do that to girls ever. But for the briefest of moments, it hurts. And creates a history. We suddenly have a more complex relationship, even if we don't act like it, because we were a thing once. That's high school me. And high school me got hurt often. So you basically saying I'm not that pretty? Yeah, kinda hurts. But you're not saying anything I don't already know. Meanwhile, I'm thankful. Because we'll never be anything more than friends. That is the guarantee you've given me. And it's one I've needed from my boys for a very long time.

Well F*ck

Why does it hurt so much?

Worst Birthday Ever

To top it all off? You didn't even say Happy Birthday