Comeback Kid

Double Meaning

One

Justin Timberlake AND Fallout Boy?

With Destiny's Child at the Superbowl

Let's give it up for 2013!

Two

We did an exercise in my Voice & Movement class. It was meant to relax us. So we lie on the ground, clear our minds, practice our breathing. The usual.

She told us to picture our favorite place, where we are warm, and comfortable. Every step after that was taking us away from that place. Mind you, that was not the focus. We were meant to shift entirely to that new place and new action, but I couldn't.

She said warm and comfortable. I thought of my dorm room. On a Saturday morning, about 9am so I've slept in but not wasted my day. The sun is shining in. I'm wrapped in my warm blanket, and you are there with me. I was meant to be alone, but for some reason you were there, and I was deep in your arms, safe and warm. And as much as I wanted to shift with the images she was giving us, I couldn't because I so desperately wanted to be back with you.

Funny How

My best friend is in Canada. Has been for 4 years. And then there's this kid who means so much to me, and tells me I mean even more to him, off in Florida. And I haven't seen him in at least 2 years.

And I still talk to them more than I do you. Like, they both make it a point to hold conversations with me as often as possible.

This isn't me being mad or whining or blaming you. I just think it's kind of crazy. Especially because I'm watching 3 guys chase Jess at once. Like, try so dang hard. And then I look at us and think... I'm chasing him. And I shouldn't be. We should be equals by now. But we're not. I wonder if I know what's good for me. I mean, not to say I should fall for a kid who lives 14 hours away from me. But still. I just wonder.

It doesn't matter. I can wonder forever. I'll never find the answer and I'll always be in love with you. Because yes, I am in love with you. It's just food for thought.

Self-Centered

Emily's gone for the weekend. (Maybe cuddles with Jeremy)
Eric is here (Jess' boo. Very cute. Except he smokes which is disappointing)
Nancy & James are off being soulmates.
Sara & Ryan are having issues.
Lauren & Jordan have their issues, but things get talked about. And they talk constantly.

I'm so lonely right now. I miss him. I miss feeling loved. I miss not having to think about it. I seriously feel miserable right now and I have absolutely no good reason. I wanna cry. But I can't. And I also have no reason to cry. Music isn't helping. Cleaning is. I don't want to do homework.

Spacial Awareness

Lauren just broke up with her boyfriend of over a year.
Sara, I really need today to NOT be all about you.

Pretty Girl

(The Way)

Darn you Glee, & your long distance episode. Now I'm in a mood.