Taking Your Role Seriously

Sean McNulty as Tamaki Suoh has to be one of my 100 favorite things

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Barbie

Can we please just talk about Barbie for a second?

Based on the movie Barbie and the Rockers from the 80's

Fun fact! It was created because Mattel needed a way to compete with Hasbro when they released Jem

ANYWAY.

She's perfect.

Like people talking about the world's best singer?

BARBIE

FLIPPIN' BARBIE.

Like, you don't understand.

She had a record breaking world tour.

And flippin' EVERYONE was in love with her.

AND THEN SHE WENT TRIPLE PLATINUM

And became the world's FIRST AMBASSADOR FOR WORLD PEACE. WHAT?

And then she announced the first ever concert in space, broadcasted to the entire globe.

And then she went BACK IN TIME and got famous in the 50's!!!
And, once again, everybody loved her.

And like, SPONSORED NASA OR SOME SH*T
And held a concert at Cape Canaveral! 
(This movie is the reason I know what Cape Canaveral is)

And then went back to the 80's and had a Welcome Home concert.
Where a girl she met in the 50's showed up as her older self in the 80's with her daughter.

Barbie frikkin' bridged the generation gap.

WHAT.

"Barbie's everyone's favorite. For all time".

Also, it doesn't help that (even though most of the music is covers of 50's/60's hits) the music in the movie is freaking catchy.

Potential Movie

I want a movie with a normal girl. Who honestly isn't that pretty. To go after a guy who is moderately well known. And for the popular girl to actually be someone nice, who like everybody likes 'cause she's legit a good person. And I want the popular girl to be successful and not even care about whoever the guy is because she's focused on her future. And I want this normal girl to go for the guy for the whole movie and play out some amazing thing like the guy realizes she's a really awesome person. And they become friends. Until he straight up tells her sorry, I'm not interested in you, like at all. And she gets upset. And then she just moves the hell on. And she doesn't have to have like only 2 friends. She can have a whole group of friends. And they are all in different places in their lives. And everything just works because it's not like we have any other choice, so we might as well make it work.

We'll call it reality.

All I Ever Wanted

This is grossly accurate

Tollhouse

A dream

thisroutehastolls had actually gotten some success to it. This is about 3 years after its inception. There is a fanbase. We Toronto20Something happened 2 years ago. Last year we went to London together. The three of us realized how much we truly loved being together. We'd been working on something for 7 months. Planning and buying and moving and organizing. It finally happened.

Luzka and I are filming a video. Talking about how great it's been to work on thisroutehastolls together and have such great fans. Cut to a shot of me. Then her. Then me. Then her. So on. Final shot, you put our two images together. You come running up and somehow magically appear in both shots. We reveal that it's all one image, all one room. And the tree of us look at the camera and shout, "WE"RE MOVING IN TOGETHER!".

And the three of us own a beautiful home. Part of the dream it was in DC. Part of it was in Canada. So who knows, moving house. Anyway. Here we had adventures. Here we filmed our adventures for our crazy fans. Here we three lived so immensely happy. And everything was roses :)

A dream. Not a nightmare. Definitely a dream :)

Cycles

After mentioning how most of the girls' cycles are starting to sync, we realized Jess was completely alone.

Jess: My vagina marches to the beat of its own ovaries.

Fall

Everything You Want

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

(Chorus:)
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
 
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

(Chorus)

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

(Chorus)
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know

My B*tching

I wonder who would be more offended after reading my blog. Storm or Jonathan? :$

Dreams and Nightmares

I had a dream last night. I got back together with Storm. A question loomed over me the whole time. Where is Karina? We were happy. It was VERY fairytale. Meadows and soft rain. Secret meetings. Two people in love. But what happened with Karina? He wouldn't tell me what happened. Only that he loved me. Only that he was so glad to have me back.

I take "A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes" very seriously. Otherwise, it's probably not a dream, but a nightmare. I woke up. I quickly realized. I DO NOT want a future with Storm. I have no attraction to Storm. He and Karina are incredibly happy. This isn't even a matter of "I don't want to break them up". I seriously do not like Storm. I do not wish for this. My heart would never wish for this. So it must be a nightmare...

Being with the person who was once my best friend would be a nightmare.

Alex 10000

Tuomas

"We are all lovable, crappy people"

Principle of the Matter

Eric Allasi: Back in my day, Pluto was a planet
Sammy: Troof
Eric: How I miss that beautiful beautiful planet. It will always be a planet in my heart.
Sammy: <3
Eric: They can't just change my life with that kind of decision. It was so young
Sammy: Right? Like I'm not a Sagittarius cause there's 13 constellations now? NO
Eric: Always have been and always will be
Sammy: Right!
Eric: I love how I have pride in something I don't really care about
Sammy: Same boat same boat. It's cause I can't pronounce the new one
Eric: What's the new one?
Sammy: Ophiucus. Nov 29 to Dec 17
Eric: Nope, nope nope nope, screw that

Come Pour Yourself All Over Me

"I know that we were made to break. So what? I don't mind"

It's Not You It's Me

I've realized another reason we could never work out. When you get mad, you really get mad. You've never put that aggression on me, and you've gotten better at controlling your anger. But I honestly haven't the slightest idea how to make you feel better. And we couldn't work like that. You need someone who can be just as much of a hero to you as you are to them. No sidekicks. Just heroes.

Spare Tire

The only thing worse than third wheeling:

FIFTH WHEELING

Art Therapy

Day 2

Jess' Brilliance

An Abundance of Katherine's by John Green
^ this is a real book.

An Abundance of Samie's by Jonathan Lieder
^ this is a book that Jess made up that is actually scary accurate. Funny thing is we all spell it differently. But I think that one should be the one that gets used.

Hopeless Romantic

The moon truly is brilliant tonight.

I walked around campus until I found a nice stone wall, and I sat on it. And I stared at the moon. I eventually found myself humming along to waltzes that popped into my head. Some part of me was hoping a kind stranger would come along and enjoy the moon with me.

What Do You Enjoy

Almost Is Never Enough

I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right, but that's a lie, that's a lie
And we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show
'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows
Almost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms
And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough
If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such thing as goodbye
You'd be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve
Try to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show
'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows
Almost, almost is never enough (is never enough, babe)
We were so close to being in love (so close)
If I would have known that you wanted me the way I wanted you, babe
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms
And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

Just Answer Me One Thing

It's all I want to know. I know about Samie and the problems and everything. I just need to know.

When was the last time you actually loved me?

Toradora

Starts as a rom com with a wacky cast.

Ends with a group of wonderful people, who are all so deserving of love.

One Year In Dark

I remember a compliment. A proposal. Signs of hope. Happiness. Late nights. No sleep. Unfiltered thoughts. Wandering eyes. Dreams. Plans. Kind words. Tears. Comfort. Warmth.

I remember a time when you were in love with me.

SPOILERS GALORE

I started a new series, recommended to me by Alex, called Toradora! It's one of the more popular animes, and the main girl is on otaku pages EVERYWHERE as the ultimate Tsundere (a character who starts out mean and angry, but shows her hidden loving side every now and again, in a kinda cute/shy way)

Main character. Ryuuji. He looks super tough and scary 'cause he looks like his dad, who was a gangster when he was alive. But in reality, he's a softie who likes to cook and clean and is basically the perfect housewife, as he had to grow up taking care of his mommy (she's not ill. She's a dancer at a club or something. She's super sweet, but she's just always tipsy and lazy and clumsy and airheaded haha).

Ryuuji's best friend is Kitamura. Sweet guy, kinda nerdy. One of the few people who isn't scared of him. He's student council VP. He's also in the baseball club.

Kitamura is teammates with Kushieda Minori (last name, then first. Guys call her by the last name out of respect). She's a hyper energetic little ball of bursting sunshine. And she's not afraid of Ryuuji at all. He's had a serious crush on her for a while. He blushes and everything, it's so cute.

Minori is best friends with Aisaka. She's this short, fiery ginger. Shorter than me even. She can pack quite the punch. She's got a lot of anger towards everyone, except Minori. Because she's tiny and angry, she's earned the nickname "Palmtop Tiger" (like a tiger that fits in your hand?). She has a huge crush on Kitamura. To the point that he makes her freeze and all her anger goes away and she completely misses social cues.

The series is Ryuuji and Aisaka teaming up to get to the best friends. Of course they become friends along the way. The school starts shipping them. Yada yada. Funny writing. All the students mentioned are juniors at this point.

EPISODE 16 WHERE I SOB FOR DAYS

Don't read if you plan on watching. But you probably won't watch, so just read.

Kitamura starts rebelling and quits Student Council. He reveals to Ryuuji that it's because the President, Kanou, who is graduating this year, is going abroad to America. He apparently joined Student Council because he fell in love with Kanou. He planned on confessing when he became President, but since she was leaving, he saw no point. Even if she did feel the same, it would be stupid to assume that she'd give up an opportunity to study abroad just for him.

Kitamura eventually realizes he HAS to be President so the school can thrive and such, and so he accepts. His speech is actually him confessing to Kanou, who pretty much knew everything that was going through his mind, but she never expected a confession then and there. When Kitamura says he just wants to know how she feels before she goes, she dodges the question by calling him "an interesting guy" and encouraging people to vote for him. The whole school is automatically sympathetic, but Ryuuji is more concerned with how Aisaka probably feels about it.

Ryuuji asks Kanou why she wouldn't just answer, but she avoids him. Aisaka interrupts Ryuuji demanding that he go comfort Kitamura. Ryuuji asks how she's doing and she says that she'll be fine and she just wants Kitamura to feel better. She says he's crying in the classroom, and she knows she can't be of any help. She wants to, but can't, so Ryuuji has to go make sure he's okay. After all the times Kitamura helped Aisaka when she was lonely, and after making it so that she didn't feel alone and had the courage to stand up again, she needed to know that he would be okay. Even if she felt heartbroken, she just wanted Kitamura to not feel alone. Ryuuji leaves Aisaka and goes to check on Kitamura. Soon, someone runs into that classroom and tells Ryuuji that they need him because Aisaka's going crazy.

Aisaka went into Kanou's class and basically challenged her to a fight. She calls Kanou a coward and selfish for not responding, and she bashes her for hurting Kitamura, which is unforgivable. Both girls are in tears, and Kanou reveals that she loves him back. But she knows Kitamura is the kind of person who would sacrifice everything for her. Kanou chose to keep quiet because, as much as she wants him to follow her, she knows that he has a future right where he is and he shouldn't leave it just for her. Kitamura overhears this and thanks Kanou for the experience of being in love with her. The episode ends with everyone in tears because they know they can never get the thing they wish for the most. With that in mind, all they truly want is for the person they love to be happy, even if it means they'll be alone.

Seriously. I sobbed. I didn't see why this show was all that popular or why it was compared to so many great romances that I'd seen. But this episode?  I felt it. I felt it in a wave that was all too real.

Anime Challenge Redo

Because it's September 2013, and not all my answers are the same as before. But I have no intention of loading all those pictures again.

1. First Anime: D.N.Angel
2. Favorite Anime: Blood+
3. Anime Crush: Kyou Sohma
4. Anime Your Ashamed You Enjoy: Crescent Love
5. Anime Character You Are Most Like: Satsuki from Kaichou wa Maid-sama
6. Most Annoying Anime Character: Ritsu from Fruits Basket
7. Favorite Anime Couple: Kirito & Asuna from Sword Art Online
8. Most Epic Scene Ever: Naruto Shippuden - Naruto and the Tailed Beasts
9. Saddest Anime Scene: Fullmetal Alchemist - Maes Hughes' funeral
10. Favorite Tsundere: Misaki from Kaichou wa Maid-sama
11. Best Yandere: The girls from Higurashi
12. Boy's Love Couple: Black Star & Soul from Soul Eater
13. Best Art: Attack On Titan (unless movies count, then GARDEN OF WORDS)
14. Favorite Hero: Saya from Blood+
15. Best Villain: Zero from Code Geass
16. Favorite Anime Opening: Attack On Titan OP1
17. Favorite school uniform: D.N.Angel
18. Cosplay: Saya from Blood+
19. Character You Want to Be: Excalibur from Soul Eater

Get It? Ehh?

Karim made a song called Acapella

And then they met up with Mike Tompkins and made the song acapella

Yes.

A Previously Asked Question

"What happens when you stop dreaming?"

I still don't know.

I've gone back to dreaming. It's hard. There are lots of lows. And it aches sometimes. But it's so much better than flat-lining.

I Choose You

Worth It

Compliments?

"You look so studious!"

"Thank you!"

...

Just A Thought

Here's an idea. How about we NOT act like newlyweds, hmm? Like. Can we not be a married couple? 'Cause it makes this whole "Being Over" thing kinda difficult. Kinda like you are. All the time. I dunno, just a suggestion.

The Way We Were

Have I never posted this? That's impossible. Because, like Carrie, it's perfect

Perspective

Angie: Oh my gosh, it's so sad that you're already leaving.
Fabrizio: It's not that sad.
Angie: Look, you've had her for forever! I only met her last year <3
Sammy: Well, I didn't really talk to him before last year either so it's okay -the girls laugh-
Fabrizio: What are you talking about, kid? It's been more than a year
Sammy: Haha okay, 2 years but it hasn't been that long
Fabrizio: -slightly offended- what? Nah, we go way back.

I was legitimately surprised. I'd love to look back at the younger years through his eyes, 'cause we clearly saw something very different.