I Deserve

A real relationship

Someone who loves me

Someone I love

Someone who is there for me

Someone I can call just 'cause I wanna hear his voice

Someone I can vent to

Someone who will vent to me

Someone who will hold me

Someone who wants to make me smile

Someone who will deal with the mushy crap

Someone to dream with me

Someone whose family will become my close friends

Someone to watch stupid movies with

Someone who I get excited to shop for

Someone to set me straight when I'm being dumb

Someone I can encourage to be the amazing person I know they are

Someone to hold my hand as we pray together

Someone to miss, but not for long

Someone who, for some reason, actually smiles when I smile

Someone who won't use me

Someone who makes me better because he knows I can be better

Someone who wants me AND loves me

Someone whose scent I want to hold onto

Someone who shares his clothes with me even though its a million times too large

Someone who I didn't settle for

Someone who doesn't make me feel like he settled for me.

You Ever Hear Those Voices?

In those situations. Where things feel a little weird. But they're super fun. You've got an adrenaline rush. You're waiting to see what happens next. And it's exciting. But also terrifying. You can admit it, you're scared. But that's what makes it so thrilling. And you want to try. And try again. And just see how close you can get to the edge. Those voices that scream, and yet it only sounds like a whisper.

Get Out.

A Note for Hookups and Late Nights

I don't need a relationship. You don't have to date me. It doesn't have to be true love.

I just want you to want me and only me. I want to be more than a distraction. I want you to think of me when you're up late at night. I want you to miss me. I want you to look at your phone, see her texting you, and put it the hell away 'cause you're with me and that's what matters. I want kissing me to be the highlight of your day. Not your week. But your day. I want you to tell your friends about me 'cause "it's not like we're getting together or anything but man this girl".

You don't need to love me. But just want me.

To Fill You In

Someone's pregnant! And it ain't me or my sister. Or literally anyone in my family.

This actually isn't news to me. This person has no secrecy on social media. Literally anyone who wants to know anything about her life could find it out.

But I know you like being involved in the chisme! I remembered I should tell you.

Oh my poor baby.

Oh. That poor baby.