Friday, June 5, 2015

April May... But will June?

April 2015 - Unbreakable Smile by Tori Kelly
May 2015 - Stressed Out by Twenty One Pilots

Runners up for the month of May were Real by Years and Years and Fight Song by Rachel Platten.

It has been a weird week. A negative one. My self esteem issues are all over the place again. I am not keeping up with my workouts or diet as I should. Driving terrifies me. I have a lot of regret. And a lot of anger and confusion. I do not want to make this blog completely negative, but I'd rather that than have a negative Skype call with you. And I do so long to talk to you. I'll tell you one thing: back when I had my Ethan disaster and I thought my world was ending, knowing that you were going to visit was the one thing that kept me from crashing. I miss you. And I look forward to speaking with you soon. And telling you face to (screens to) face that next month will be better. I won't let this rut get me down forever.